I’m pretty stubborn
Everyday i ask myself
When will i surrender?
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I dont understand how sometimes i wish i was still in highschool when all i was back then was stressed and depressed. *shrugs
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It’s all about building relationships.
That’s what i used to be all about. Someone who has something to share, someone who wants to be the influence, to motivate, to inspire. Someone who wants to get into your world and be there for you, try to make you laugh, try to have fun with you, but also be that shoulder to cry on, be the one who gives the good advice. Someone who genuinely wants to get to know you, your past and your future goals. Someone who sees the good in you and have the hope for a better you. Maybe I’ve changed or the world changed, but sometimes i cant help but wish that im still the same way. Because it shouldn’t matter where you are. Compassion is always sought out for. But maybe I’ve gotten smarter about it too. The whole concept of unrequited interest. Yeah i forgot, i might have cared a little too much. But must i give up if the other person just persistently dont give an eff about you? Not even that, but must i give up if the other person doesnt value our relationship as much as i do? I wonder if it’s possible to have an impact on somebody and never even be close to them or anything. But i dont think im that type of person. I gotta meet you and you gotta know me. See, it’s all about building relationships. The type of relationships that when you haven’t talked to each other for years but still remember what that person did for you, all the good times you guys had. But then what happens? You move on with your life. You made an impact to each other, okay, talk to you later. Is that what supposed to happen? Coz friends come and go, right? So what now? Am i not satisfy with my friends? No, i just feel like i havent done shi. That ive lost it. That ive got nothing to offer to anyone anymore. That i’ve become prideful and start picking friends. Maybe thats whats supposed to happen as time pass. Do i not believe in building relationships anymore?
